Confusion

I should be preparing for my meeting at work right now, but I wanted to take a moment and capture the way I am feeling.
I am sorry if I seem obsessed with this topic lately. It is never-ending. The person who is running in my thoughts here is crazy and cool and amazing and wise and kind...and sometimes the opposite of all of that. There are times when I feel like I am in love with him, and there are times when I feel like that would be the absolute dumbest idea in the world. But either way, this whole discussion is making me think. Hard. About what I value, what I need, what I want...and what I am willing to compromise. And, really, either way it is moot. Because we will most likely never be together...for various reasons - some his and some mine.
It sounds both more and less tragic than it actually is. It is friendship, but it is way deeper than that. I feel like, yeah, like there is a reason this person is in my life in the way that he is. I am thankful for his presence even though sometimes I want to kick him in the butt and stick my tongue out at him.
This is not a sad feeling. Instead, I am filled with a hopeful understanding. All is far more simple and far more complex than I am giving credit.
And then there is this practical love. I have a steady n stable love relation that supports me and ensures I don't get too out of hand. Is it selfish for me to want both? Perhaps it is true that no one person will ever satisfy me. Funny that in saying that, and living it. The question is, which do I prefer? And I suppose it's not a pressing question at the moment. I just know my life changed when I met him. Its only he who can give me the strength and love to get out of my past. I know its tough for him too and I am asking too much, but we expect only from our near & dear ones. This is a challenge, and we have to face it and live upto it. I just need his support. I hope he understands. Life has been great after we met... truly, all of it is beautiful. All of it. Every. Last. Bit.